By the Grace of G-d
Dear Friend,
Ironically, while making purchases via the internet is called ‘online shopping’, you actually avoid standing ‘on line’ by doing your shopping ‘online’.
Standing in a queue is not one of my favorite activities.
Unless it’s for a special reason.
Last week I stood in two long lines one day after the other.
One was agonizing. The other was blissful.
On Wednesday I was traveling from Montreal to New York. I had led a farbrengen at one of the local shuls in preparation for the Rebbe’s yahrtzeit till late at night and early in the morning headed to Montreal’s airport for the first flight out to New York. I thought I had left plenty of time, but I didn’t take into account the length of the queue for US customs that one must clear in Montreal airport.
After standing impatiently for more than an hour in line, I finally made it to the plane. I was the last one to board.
The next day I stood in a line as well. A longer one.
At about 2pm on Thursday the third of Tammuz, I joined the line to go the Rebbe’s Ohel. It took three and a half hours of waiting in the queue till I got to enter the holy space for a few minutes of prayer.
If someone had offered me a ‘pass’ to cut to the head of the line, I wouldn’t have taken it.
Waiting in a line for something holy and cherished, among fellow minded people, didn’t feel like a burden.
I utilized the time to pray, study and greet people from around the world that I would otherwise not meet.
But the truth is, that when one activates their belief in G-d and his Divine Providence to the highest level, one is always happy and calm. Even when stuck in a big traffic jam.
This week’s portion is all about the wicker sorcerer Bil’am (Balaam) who was hired by Balak, the regional king of the time, to curse the conquering Jews as a way of stopping their advance into the land of Israel.
As powerful as Bil’am was, and as great a track record he had of being able to place people under his curse, this time he was blocked and instead of issuing curses, blessings came rolling out of his mouth.
G-d showed Bil’am who the true Boss is and as hard as he tried (even changing locations and trying to get himself into a ‘cursing frame of mind’) only blessings for the Jewish people issued forth from his mouth. Some of the most powerful blessings – one was even incorporated into our daily prayer schedule – originate from this wicked man’s mouth.
While turning curses to blessing is a miracle performed by G-d, we too have some level of ability and power to be able to choose whether we will feel ‘cursed’ by a challenging situation or view the challenge in a blessed way and thus transform it into good.
A few years ago, I met a middle-aged Jew at the Chabad House who had been stuck here for several months totally against his will due to a legal matter that got entangled and instead of taking a few weeks dragged out to a few months. I commiserated with him saying how difficult it must be to have your plans totally uprooted and to be stuck so far away from home, work and family. To my absolute surprise he did not at all agree to my sorrowful commiseration and told me he feels blessed. Blessed? I asked him. How is that? And he proceeded to tell me how he had made himself a list of all the blessings that had come out of this unexpected twist to his life and had reached a total of THIRTEEN blessings that had resulted from this hiccup which was initially perceived as being a ‘curse’. (One of those that he shared with me is that he now reconnected to prayer and dons Tefilin daily, a ritual which he looks forward to continuing once he is able to go back home).
The previous Rebbe penned a diary describing his imprisonment at the hands of the communists in 1927 and his subsequent redemption on the 12th of Tammuz (tomorrow’s Hebrew date) which is marked and celebrated annually.
These days of the liberation of a Jewish leader allow for ‘tapping-in’ to the redemptive energies of the days. They provide us the opportunity for Heavenly strength to overcome the things that may be confining us.
One of the things the Rebbe describes is making a wrong turn in the labyrinth of the prison corridors.
Whether unwittingly or intentionally I do not know, but evidently, because I was immersed in thought, or because of confusion, when I approached that open door I turned into another long corridor which branched off to the right. It was as long as the other, but whitewashed, and the wall facing outside was relieved by many windows. Benches lined both walls, and there were no armed guards. The numerous white doors on the inner wall were numbered and neatly labelled. I did not take the trouble to observe what was written on them, being overwhelmed by the striking contrast between the gross darkness and the armed guards of the former corridor, and the civilized light of the present one. In this spirit I walked on with bolder and surer steps, and no man asked me a word or told me a word.
As I walked, I recalled that I had erred: I was meant to continue straight on to the door that was open to every prisoner. How had I come here? Would this add to my offenses? Would they trump up a charge that I had transgressed by walking in a place where prisoners like myself were not allowed to go? Would this digression supply material for a libel that I was spying out the inner byways of Spalerka?
Nevertheless, I did not hasten to retrace my steps. In the first instance, I told myself, I would not have dared to go there, but since I was now walking down this corridor, then this was one of the workings of Divine Providence. After all, I asked myself, was this detour of mine less significant than the turning over of a crushed bit of straw, or a leaf driven from side to side? For, as our mentor the Baal Shem Tov teaches, even these subjects are governed by Divine Providence (as is explained in the maamar known as Tik’u 5688 [1928]).
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If we were all to take a few moments before complaining about our ‘tzores’ (difficulties) and meditate on the fact that G-d’s Divine Providence covers them too, we would probably uncover latent blessings and opportunities that we are currently overlooking.
No, I am not fantasizer wishing to sell you a utopia that is a figment of an imagination and obviously we all know that there are things that are painful and we wish we could avoid and we valiantly try to avoid. However, once you are in that situation and it is no longer avoidable, you have only one choice, and that is the choice of how to react to it and what to make of it. The famous saying is ‘when handed lemons, make lemonade’.
When one realizes that everything, every single detail of life, is by Hashem’s detailed providence, then even standing on a line is meaningful. Because its where Hashem wants you to be at that time.
And when one is aware that they are in the exact place that G-d desires them to be, then they are happy.
Being happy is one of the most effective methods to bring blessings into your life.
The holy book of the Zohar teaches that G-d chooses to mirror our moves and moods. If you want to change your lot for the better and earn G-d’s smile, first try to radiate joy and put a smile on your face. As the saying goes in Yiddish ‘tracht gut, vet zain gut’ (think positive and it will be positive).
Shabbat Shalom,
Rabbi Yosef Kantor